focus

Focus.

I have always struggled with maintaining focus on a project. With all the thoughts churning through this aging brain at any given moment and the availability to look anything up at any given time, it takes a great deal of willpower for me to get stuff done.

And this can be exhausting.

My second grade teacher, probably the only one to truly ‘get me’ during my elementary school years, would have me turn my desk 90º to face the adjacent wall. She’d tell me, “you’re not in trouble, it’ll just help you tune out the noise in the room”. I’d be obsessed with the clock clicking once a minute except at the top of the hour when it clicked twice but didn’t do anything (it was correcting itself) or what someone was humming two rows away, or what was going on out the window. I gazed out the window a lot. After turning my desk she’d say, “we’re watching a movie later and you can run the projector”.

That was my reward.

In these modern times headphones playing non-lyrical music helps me when I’m at work, but when I’m editing a video or photos or something, I can easily be distracted away from what I intend to accomplish. I have a few of my own tricks to help with that as well and they’re moderately successful.

This video from Ryan Holiday helps me keep a lot of things in perspective and I’ve watched it twice since it was released earlier this week.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZXIZdMcHUCA

Focus.

One of the things I’ve been focusing on in 2025 is improving my focus. We’ve all heard the studies and discussions about how social media, smartphones, and the like is zapping our ability to focus. Even as the social media companies expand the number of characters allowed in a post, it’s still training use to think in 140 or 280 character snippets.

I have noticed my ability to focus waning for a while now and at the beginning of the year I decided this was something I did not want to happen. I’ve been making a point of reading books more. While it’s difficult to step away from the computer and still be an informed citizen, especially in The Age of Manufactured Chaos™, I purposely close the computer and other connected devices 20-30 minutes before I go to bed. This habit has been hard for me to maintain. As a geek I’m very drawn to buttons, blips, and lights, but there’s something nearly magical for me to actually read a book each night before heading to bed. Writing about this intention helps me reinforce my desire to get this accomplished.

This blog occasionally holds me accountable to my plans.

I’ve also been trying to write more, though over the past couple of days I haven’t been doing it as much as I like. I have a couple of blog entries that I never finished; they’re nothing earth-shattering and will be posted soon with a date stamp of the day I intended for the post to appear. But writing gets my creative juices flowing. It’s something that I need to be doing more and more.

The other thing I’m always battling is distraction, again, especially in the my technological life. This is one of my stumbling blocks to using Linux exclusively; the Linux ecosystem becomes too fiddly and I end up spending more time fiddling with things instead of doing what I wanted to do, namely writing, editing photos, or making videos. Conversely, if I focus specially on one ecosystem (like going all in on Apple), I get really bored. Finding the sweet spot of focus with distraction or boredom is a challenge for me, but I seem to have that right now.

Again, I write these things to remind me of where I need to be.

I’m hoping to jump off the trend lines of losing focus with my fellow human beings. I think it’s a good step of improving my mental health which in turn could lead to a more fulfilling existence on the back half of my life.

Portal.

As I get older, I’ve been finding it harder to focus on tasks. I’ve never been one for “deep focus” if the activity is not on my checklist of intense interests. Unfortunately, work tends to not be on that list.

In the past I have listened to music to try to eliminate distractions around me. This generally works, but over the past few years I’ve noticed that anything with lyrics in the music tends to be a distraction as well. I blame this on listening intently to the words, a habit learned since becoming a pilot, where I’m always listening to my call sign from Air Traffic Control.

There’s a part of me that wonders if this increased struggle with maintaining focus at work has something to do with my couple of rounds of COVID since 2020. I know most of the world believes COVID was a hit ‘n run sort of thing, where we got vaccinated, and if we feel recovered from it we were just as we were before we contracted it. I don’t know if that’s true or not, but I know that I’ve never been able to shake off a certain amount of brain fog since my experiences of having COVID.

I have found that listening to soundscapes like thunderstorms or even brown noise has done wonders for my focus at work. Luckily, I’m in a position that lets me enjoy such a thing. I alternate between my Apple AirPod Pros and my Bose noise canceling over-the-ear headphones.

Today I discovered an app, via the Apple Store Story page, called Portal (link to the Apple App store). A beautifully designed app, not only is it a joy to use, but it provides gorgeous imagery to go along with the amazing soundscapes. Here I am enjoying the sights and sounds of a waterfall in Iceland.

At $49.99/year (or $250 for a lifetime) it’s a bit on the pricey side. I just started the seven day free trial today. So far in the past hour I’ve knocked out more work than I’ve knocked it in the previous three.

Peace of mind and feeling grounded through better focus might be worth that price of admission.